In tears, Renu Desai says Pawan has moved on

Hyderabad, Dec 4: Former model, actress and estranged wife of Pawan Kalyan, Renu Desai, has said on Thursday that people say she should go back to Kalyan. She asked as to where or to whom she can go back, as Pawan has moved on. "I can’t go back and be with him again and disrupt his privacy,” said Renu, who celebrated her birthday today amidst her family and friends. Speaking in a special interview, Renu said people say love is blind, but in her case it is also dumb and deaf. "I fell in love with Kalyan when I was 18. We thought he will get divorce in 6 months. Unfortunately, it took 8 long years," she confessed about her live-in relationship with Pawan. Breaking into tears when the host asked her as to how she was coping up with the loneliness, Renu said, "I still don't know how people cope up with the loneliness. I still don't know how to move on. For me, if we love a person it will be till the end. That's my perspective of love. I really tried very hard to be with Pawan till the end. I even argued with a lawyer in the matter. But in the end its a matter of destiny. I have to accept it," she admitted. In the interview, Renu said that she never likes to celebrate her birthday. However, she said that she got her best birthday gift when her son Akhira had written 'I love you mummy' at the age of four. Watch the Video!